Where should I even start? Words fall short for this lost time. Honestly, I might have thought about a hundred times of how I would write this post. Yes, THIS one – the one you are reading – the one where I would re-introduce myself as a mommy of two. I thought a lot and when nothing helped – here I am.. Today I decided to just sit down and write. Write – whatever comes to my mind because well, this is my blog and it has always been like that. I write what I want to write. And you read what I write. Right? 🙂 To be frank, I tried a several times to come back to the blog on a regular basis, but then I always got distracted – sometimes by a screaming toddler and other times by a baby needing a diaper change. Simply saying ‘my life has changed’ doesn’t even begin to describe the chaos that I live in now. But do I love it? Oh boy, I do love it! This chaos is my new normal. This chaos fills my heart up to the brim. This chaos helps me sleep peacefully every night (by which I mean the few hours that I get to sleep, thanks to the little one). After my last post, you were right to expect baby pictures and the postpartum stories and all that faff. But if you know me.. you would know that I find it tedious to pen all that. Who wants to go back and talk about their birth stories – I just wanted to recover and get back on my feet. 9 months of pregnancy is more than enough to talk about pain and discomfort. No more, please. Plus I was too busy to even blink! Both my babies needed me 24/7. And like I’ve always said – ‘Life happens’. And it happened. To me. Anyhow, now that we are on other side of the tunnel, I finally managed to sit down and just scribble my jumbled thoughts.
And if you’ve come here just for pictures, well then I wouldn’t dare disappoint you! We clicked these today post lunch with friends. I know, yes it’s almost December, and no we don’t need jackets in Florida. Thanks much! Oh by the way, Happy Thanksgiving!
I absolutely forgot how much I loved this little space of mine. I loved writing about my life musings, posing for pictures, putting outfits together and connecting with fellow bloggers. This time away from blog was (at first) unintentional. Then few BIG events happened in my life which really shifted my focus and the blog took a back seat. I would be lying if I said I did not miss blogging, but this is also true that blogging was the last thing on my mind when my health was not co-operating with my body. Ok, so here’s the deal – we planned for baby no.2, and I fell pregnant but had a very unhealthy first trimester. I was so sick that I couldn’t take care of myself or even my little girl. Mind you, the pregnancy was healthy, it was me who wasn’t well. And none of the medicines were working. It was as if my body was doing a thing of its own. Imagine you keep coughing all night, can’t sleep for a single minute, wake up extremely tired with all kinds of smell and food aversions and also have a toddler to take care of! I was just thrown under the bus like that. I clearly remember one morning calling my mom and crying over the phone (real tears and all) telling her how I feel so helpless in this state. Even doing simple everyday chores was a big challenge. If you know me, you know how much fitness enthusiast I have been all my life. And mind you, I was absolutely fit before falling pregnant. I was boxing, going to the gym every day, eating healthy and just in general very active. But the world changed upside down for me in a matter of couple weeks. Then this sickness lasted until my 5th month of pregnancy. I of course, took my mom’s advice and went to India for seven to eight weeks, where I just relaxed, rested and ate all the good homemade food. It was what was needed at that time, I guess. This pregnancy is so, so different from my first one. My first pregnancy went by without any issues. No morning sickness, no major health issues, the only thing that bothered me last time was acne. It was horrible but other than that, everything went quite smoothly. Anyhow, now that I am feeling a lot better and enjoying in my last leg pregnancy (only 2.5 weeks left for baby no.2 to arrive), I thought of coming back here and saying hi to this little world of mine. So many of you would have lost hope in me coming back to blogging but trust me, I am not going anywhere. A little break here and there is sometimes unavoidable, because well, life happens and priorities shift. But you have my word, dear blog – I will not abandon you.
8 months pregnant in this pic. The bump is bigger now (as if that’s even possible) 😉
If you thought I ran away somewhere, then you are right. I kind of went in to hiding. Actually I haven’t been in the right head space lately. My daughter started day care last week and I am having some very mixed feelings about it. You see she has been at home with me since she was born and now to think that someone else is taking care of her just makes me anxious. On the other hand, I have so much time to myself now since my whole day used to revolve around her. She is fierce, strong and a very active toddler. Sometimes it gets too much. Don’t get me wrong, I love her to pieces. But every mom needs some space too and I am enjoying these quiet hours way more than I imagined. Does that make me a bad mom? Am I being selfish? Is it wrong to feel relieved? Or am I thinking too much? These thoughts just never leave me..
So yes, these conversations that I keep having in my head are the reason why I am not myself lately. And on grey days we wear yellow. Yellow brightens up my mood. I hope you are having a good day!
This dress deserves a second appearance on the blog. Last time I wore it on the blog was when I was five months pregnant. Oh good times.. And now I am always chasing my 17 months old trouble maker. Well, as I mentioned, this feather-light dress deserves another mention. The color is soothing and the fabric feels like rose petals. It’s a must for my summer wardrobe. I wear this and I feel I have nothing on me (don’t get any ideas ok!) 😉 Isn’t that a good feeling under the scorching Florida sun!
Last time I kept it simple with plain white sneakers, however this time I glamorized it with accessories. That totally changes the look. Check out how I styled this dress last time HERE.
Dress is Old Navy, sandals are Kenneth Cole (a T.J.Maxx find) and the bag is also from T.J.Maxx (similar one). Necklace is from Burlington and earrings are old.