You know that phase in life when you feel content and don’t feel the need of running behind anyone or anything? I feel like I am there, right now. I have arrived. I am good… life is good. I often tell my husband that I feel content. This certainly doesn’t imply that I have no desire to learn something new or go somewhere new, or meet someone new or level myself up. This simply means that that special happy feeling deep inside my heart, it keeps me grounded.. leveled. So back to the post, the only reason of being MIA was that I had no thoughts to share here. This certainly doesn’t mean that I had nothing exciting going on in my life, on the contrary, I am loving life as it is.. I just did not feel the need to pen anything, ya know! I was just doing ok in my small world. So why this post, you may ask? I don’t know.. I just felt like writing, so here I am. Everything I have ever posted here has always been directly from my heart. And today, my heart is content. Yes, in the middle of all the chaos that this world is facing, I am trying to find my Center. Leaving you with this beautiful poem –
A Center By Ha Jin
You must hold your quiet center, where you do what only you can do. If others call you a maniac or a fool, just let them wag their tongues. If some praise your perseverance, don’t feel too happy about it— only solitude is a lasting friend.
You must hold your distant center. Don’t move even if earth and heaven quake. If others think you are insignificant, that’s because you haven’t held on long enough. As long as you stay put year after year, eventually you will find a world beginning to revolve around you.
I have something to share today. As you know I blog when I feel like I have something to share, some thing to write about. I can’t just put up ten pictures and call it a post. It has never been like that on this blog and will never be. Anyways, so back to the topic. My last post might have come across as angry or maybe even sad. But that is not how I am feeling today, or these days. I have come to appreciate some good things this pandemic has forced us in to. For instance – I have not missed a single day of my workout since the social distancing started. I am beginning to see the fruits of my hard work now. Patting myself for the effort and determination. I have eaten 95 percent of my meals at home, all home-cooked. Initially, when all this started, I used to miss going out and eating at a nice joint and not having to cook something. But those cravings have subsided. Ofcourse, we still do take-outs once a week, we are no saints! 😉 I am on top of my laundry game. Who doesn’t like clean, folded and ironed clothes! My sleep schedule has improved SIGNIFICANTLY. 9 pm is bedtime now. You’ve no idea how big of an achievement this is, for us as a family! 😊 Dark circles are a thing of the past now. I get more work done from home. Yes, thankfully I am still employed and lucky (and very grateful) be able to work from home. Cutting down on ‘travel to work’ really gives me an extra hour and half during the day to get more work done! No complaints here. These are just few things which feel like blessings to me. I know all this may not apply to everyone, as these trying times are testing all of us. But my point for this post is to look for a silver lining. This is my silver lining. Hope is the only way we will get through this.
Also today we are celebrating our 9th wedding anniversary. Thought of dressing up in this red lace saree which I teamed up with a crop top for our Italian Lunch take-out. 😛
Who would’ve thought this would happen to us? I mean look at our planet – what have we done to it? It makes me cry. We kept abusing our planet non-stop, no wonder it’s showing us who is the boss now! People are afraid of people. This looks like a scene from a zombie movie where everyone thinks about themselves and is trying hard to just stay alive. I so hope it doesn’t come to that. Anyhow, here we are – isolated, quarantined, scared and unsure of the future. Some are sick, some recovering, some unemployed. ☹ I pray for this to STOP. This has to STOP. This is no way to live life in fear and anxiety. I have two small kids who can’t go out to play, live a normal life like we did in our childhood. I want them to have the same freedom that we adults did at one point of time. Let’s not ruin our last chance once all this is over – that is, if we get that last chance! I hope we do. May all this gets over SOON. Let’s do our part to calm down mother nature’s anger towards humanity. We are our own enemies. Our cars, air conditioners, factories, senseless meat consumption, deforestation, single use plastics – our destruction list in too long to count. All this has done irreparable harm to our planet. We only have ONE planet. Let’s SAVE it. I am doing my part and will keep doing it. How about you?
This little gem of a saree is gifted by – you guessed it – none other than my beloved mother. Love how graceful it makes me look. It is what you call a perfectly behaved saree. Shoes are Anne Klein -sorry they are sold out now (similar ones).
Our recent trip to India was soul satisfying. (Btw, thankfully we came back a month ago, way before all the lockdowns and travel bans). While in India, I basically just did ‘nothing’. I woke up, ate and slept. In my humble opinion, we all need such times in our lives when we are not running behind something. Though this trip was absolutely impromptu and the reason behind the trip was definitely not ‘leisure’ or vacation, I still had a very relaxing time there. This trip made me realize that we don’t realize, in general we run behind too many things in life. From the start of the day to finish we always have things/activities/chores planned. Our To-Do list is never ending and stuff keeps piling up – it’s the story of our mundane routine lives. From now on, I have decided to block time in my to-do list to do NOTHING. Yep! This time will be used to absolutely do nothing. No nail spas or facials or shopping trips – Just nothing. I don’t know what I will be doing during that time. May be I will pick a pen and notepad and just write my thoughts or may be I’ll just sit and relax and stare at the wall. This feeling of ‘I have nothing to accomplish’ right now would be so freeing since we are always ‘on the go’ and rarely have time to sit and do nothing. I wrote the above paragraph two weeks ago, when things were not as crazy as now. Looks like I won’t have to ‘make’ time to do nothing, we have been forced in to it anyway. Ok, maybe not nothing, some of us are still working from home, tending kids and the elderly but you know what I mean.. No traveling to work, no socializing, no partying equals to more free time. How are you spending all this ‘extra free time’ at home? On the plus side, staying home more means more opportunities to wear a Saree. I am sure liking the freedom of dressing up my way – everyday! This light weight printed chiffon saree in mustard felt perfect for a ‘work from home summer afternoon’. Bought it in Kanpur (India) from a local shop, you can find similar ones here and here. Classic Clarks Moccasins.