I absolutely forgot how much I loved this little space of mine. I loved writing about my life musings, posing for pictures, putting outfits together and connecting with fellow bloggers. This time away from blog was (at first) unintentional. Then few BIG events happened in my life which really shifted my focus and the blog took a back seat. I would be lying if I said I did not miss blogging, but this is also true that blogging was the last thing on my mind when my health was not co-operating with my body. Ok, so here’s the deal – we planned for baby no.2, and I fell pregnant but had a very unhealthy first trimester. I was so sick that I couldn’t take care of myself or even my little girl. Mind you, the pregnancy was healthy, it was me who wasn’t well. And none of the medicines were working. It was as if my body was doing a thing of its own. Imagine you keep coughing all night, can’t sleep for a single minute, wake up extremely tired with all kinds of smell and food aversions and also have a toddler to take care of! I was just thrown under the bus like that. I clearly remember one morning calling my mom and crying over the phone (real tears and all) telling her how I feel so helpless in this state. Even doing simple everyday chores was a big challenge. If you know me, you know how much fitness enthusiast I have been all my life. And mind you, I was absolutely fit before falling pregnant. I was boxing, going to the gym every day, eating healthy and just in general very active. But the world changed upside down for me in a matter of couple weeks. Then this sickness lasted until my 5th month of pregnancy. I of course, took my mom’s advice and went to India for seven to eight weeks, where I just relaxed, rested and ate all the good homemade food. It was what was needed at that time, I guess. This pregnancy is so, so different from my first one. My first pregnancy went by without any issues. No morning sickness, no major health issues, the only thing that bothered me last time was acne. It was horrible but other than that, everything went quite smoothly. Anyhow, now that I am feeling a lot better and enjoying in my last leg pregnancy (only 2.5 weeks left for baby no.2 to arrive), I thought of coming back here and saying hi to this little world of mine. So many of you would have lost hope in me coming back to blogging but trust me, I am not going anywhere. A little break here and there is sometimes unavoidable, because well, life happens and priorities shift. But you have my word, dear blog – I will not abandon you.
8 months pregnant in this pic. The bump is bigger now (as if that’s even possible) 😉
If you thought I ran away somewhere, then you are right. I kind of went in to hiding. Actually I haven’t been in the right head space lately. My daughter started day care last week and I am having some very mixed feelings about it. You see she has been at home with me since she was born and now to think that someone else is taking care of her just makes me anxious. On the other hand, I have so much time to myself now since my whole day used to revolve around her. She is fierce, strong and a very active toddler. Sometimes it gets too much. Don’t get me wrong, I love her to pieces. But every mom needs some space too and I am enjoying these quiet hours way more than I imagined. Does that make me a bad mom? Am I being selfish? Is it wrong to feel relieved? Or am I thinking too much? These thoughts just never leave me..
So yes, these conversations that I keep having in my head are the reason why I am not myself lately. And on grey days we wear yellow. Yellow brightens up my mood. I hope you are having a good day!
I have a question for you. When you buy something new, say a dress or a pair of shoes or fancy napkins, do you wear (or use) it the next chance you get or you save it for a special occasion? I ask because for years I used to be one of those who would save new stuff for those special occasions which frankly do not come that often. A couple months ago, I finally let go of this habit. And it is has been life changing. I’m not exaggerating, seriously. It is so, so liberating to not save your favorite dinner set for special guests or that lovely dress for a special night. Live for TODAY. Today is the only moment you can be sure of. Past is gone and who knows what future holds. Right now is all that we have.
Again it was a super windy evening which is clearly evident from the pictures. This beautiful contrast trim blouse is from Target and the skirt is five years old. Bought these blush tassel earrings from Asos. Oh and these green heels. Can it get any better? They are Anne Klein and out of stock now. Sorry! 🙂
From a blogger point of view, none of the pictures from this shoot turned out well. None. Not one at all. Honestly, this never happens. If we click twenty, atleast five do come out decent. But some days the camera really doesn’t co-operate and apparently, it was one of those days. But when I uploaded the pictures on the computer, I kind of really liked them. I liked how raw they looked – absolutely real. This is me, most of the time – twirling, smiling, always fixing her hair – perfectly imperfect.
Wore this to a lunch and shopping date with my girlfriend and had a blast. When you are happy it shows on your face. It was super windy that evening and it also rained later. Perfect end to a perfect day.
This green shade is what we call ‘Mehendi green’ in Hindi. Mehendi means henna. And whenever I look at this color, it reminds me of beautiful Indian weddings when brides and grooms apply mehendi on their hands. So shall we call this dress the ‘mehendi dress’? Ya, let’s.
The dress is from JCPenney, sandals from Target and earrings are Old Navy.