As I age, I’ve realized my circle (‘Circle’ here means the people I call mine, the people I am closed to, the people who understand me, the people who know the true me) keeps getting smaller. I have no room for people who are fake or pretend to be my friend or well wishers. Does this happen to you too? I feel life is too precious to be wasted on wrong relationships. Keeping my circle small and close has really given me the opportunity to stay away from unnecessary ‘pretend’ friendships, gossips, from getting wronged and getting heart broken. I still get misjudged because I can’t change other’s perception about me, neither do I care, nor do I have the time and energy to do so. I love my small world and love the people in it and also love being loved by them unconditionally.
Here, in a cotton saree gifted by the mothership on a Sunday afternoon – leaving for a day of errands. Punjabi jutti is from a local shop in Amritsar from my recent trip to India. I have never worn a cotton saree before, and this saree completely changed my perception of cotton sarees. What a breeze!
Now that the holiday cheer is over and everyone is back to business, can we talk about how desperately we wait for the festivities to come and how quickly they get over! I feel the same every year, do you too Ha! Just kidding.. ofcourse this time flies by, because we wait for it so impatiently, we enjoy it, we celebrate, we eat good food, we dress up, we party, we get together, we (try to) forget our sorrows and just enjoy the beautiful moments, we make memories – well my list is infinite.. I just love holidays and celebrations way too much. What can I say.. I am a romantic at heart! In another news, we are traveling to India! Its going to be our first visit as a family of four.. how exciting that is! I just can’t contain my excitement. These days are being spent packing suitcases and making lists of things we don’t want to forget. And I am equally dreading the journey with my two little ones. Oh God, help us. Below – Keva’s third meeting with Mr. Claus and the boy’s first. Clearly he wasn’t amused.
Like I said last time, yesterday was my daughter’s third birthday and her party was a blast! At least for me it was. Last night when I was lying in bed next to my doll putting her to sleep, somehow I just couldn’t hold back my tears. All the memories – from the day she was born… to when she took her first steps… to when turned one… to when she called me ‘mamma’ for the first time… to when she became a big sister… all these beautiful memories kept flashing in front of my eyes. It was pitch dark in the room but I could see everything crystal clear. All I want is to imprint these special memories in my mind in such a way that they never fade. If only I could just pause the time, this is such a precious time of my life. My older one now communicates her feelings and showers us with hugs and kisses. If only I could bottle up her innocence and sweetness I totally would. It’s very, very hard for me to put this love, this motherly feeling in words. I am BEYOND grateful to the almighty that I got to experience the gift of motherhood – not once but TWICE! So then, I picked up my phone and started typing everything I was feeling right then. I’ve never attempted at any such thing before, so here it goes –
आज क्या लिखूँ ..??
एक बेटी की आस थी तब ज़िंदगी में तुम आई नन्ही सी जान लगा मानो घर भर गया दिल को सुकून मिल गया तुम्हारी बड़ी बड़ी आँखें.. प्यारी सी नाक़ सबने कहा अपने पापा पर गई हो पायल पहने पुरे घर में दौड़ती थी
नजाने कब तुम इतनी बड़ी हो गई.. अब पटर पटर बोलती हो कितने सवाल करती हो मम्मा मम्मा कह पूरा दिन तंग करती हो कभी अपना बेस्ट फ्रेंड बना लेती हो और कभी रूठ जाती हो फिर तुरन्त मान भी जाती हो
अपनी मासूमियत और चंचल अदाओं से सबको ख़ूब हसाती हो
तुम्हीं से तो है घर – घर मेरा तुम्हीं तो मेरी परी हो अपने पापा की गुड़िया और दादी की लाडो रानी नानी की तो फुलझड़ी हो
और क्या लिखूँ… वो शब्द नहीं बने जो बता सकें की तुम मेरे लिए क्या हो बस ईश्वर का आशीर्वाद हो मेरी प्यारी सी बेटी मेरी Keva तुम जियो हज़ारों साल Happy birthday मेरी लल्ली ❤️
We clicked these pictures after my girl’s birthday party got over. I am surprised how well the saree held its shape and was actually a breeze through out the event. Of course I had to wear a saree! Another gift from dear mothership. Aren’t mothers just awesome! Thanks mom, love you.
The big news is that my first born is turning three next week! How did that happen? Right. Okay, first things first – You’ll never hear me say that time flies. Like never. Specially, these three years did not. I have lived, loved (and suffered too) every single day of all these years since she came along in to our lives. Yes, kids are lovely and they bring whole other dimension to our lives but, BUT – they also make our bodies go through second birth, they tire us, they make us worry, they give us sleepless nights, they take all the living juice out of us and then they also teach us ‘how to love someone so much that your heart hurts’, they teach us patience, they teach us forgiveness, they teach us how to look at life with innocence, they teach us so many things.. I will stop here. Anyways, where were we? Yes, so I have lived all these moments with her and loved most of them (ok, I’ll say it) and hated some too. Some days felt never-ending and some nights were longer than I could ever imagine. Some days were so joyous, it felt like my heart would burst with happiness and then there were lows. It is tough, the initial years are challenging – specially for new parents, and even more for those who live overseas or far away from their immediate families. There is no one to guide you and get you through the rough waters. You’ve got to figure out everything on your own – all while keeping an innocence life alive and fed!! Waah! AND WE DID IT! I am so proud. We are growing WITH her too. What a beautiful phase it is, to see everything from her eyes. Sometimes innocent, sometimes witty – she’s just charming. She will charm anyone with her smile and the way she says ‘Pleeeease’ with puppy eyes when she wants something. We are still working on our tantrums, but frankly I don’t mind them! I actually find them cute to be honest. Anyways, so I was saying that we are going to celebrate our daughter’s third birthday next weekend and we are SO looking forward to it!
Wore this pretty suit today which was a hand me down from the mothership. I somehow feel engulfed by her love and warmth when I wear her clothes. That will never change I guess! 🙂 Until next time.. Ritika