Apprehension

Who would’ve thought this would happen to us? I mean look at our planet – what have we done to it? It makes me cry. We kept abusing our planet non-stop, no wonder it’s showing us who is the boss now! People are afraid of people. This looks like a scene from a zombie movie where everyone thinks about themselves and is trying hard to just stay alive. I so hope it doesn’t come to that.
Anyhow, here we are – isolated, quarantined, scared and unsure of the future. Some are sick, some recovering, some unemployed. ☹ I pray for this to STOP. This has to STOP. This is no way to live life in fear and anxiety.
I have two small kids who can’t go out to play, live a normal life like we did in our childhood. I want them to have the same freedom that we adults did at one point of time. Let’s not ruin our last chance once all this is over – that is, if we get that last chance! I hope we do. May all this gets over SOON.
Let’s do our part to calm down mother nature’s anger towards humanity. We are our own enemies. Our cars, air conditioners, factories, senseless meat consumption, deforestation, single use plastics – our destruction list in too long to count. All this has done irreparable harm to our planet. We only have ONE planet. Let’s SAVE it. I am doing my part and will keep doing it. How about you?

This little gem of a saree is gifted by – you guessed it – none other than my beloved mother. Love how graceful it makes me look. It is what you call a perfectly behaved saree. Shoes are Anne Klein -sorry they are sold out now (similar ones).

Serenity

These are crazy times. Nothing feels real, it feels as if we are part of a movie and events are turning out how it would happen in a movie. I am not going to tell you what to do, I guess you already know all that, thanks to the health officials, social media, TV and all other news outlets. We all know what to do and what not to do during these crucial times. Let’s do the right thing and stay home as guided.

Wore this soft cotton handloom saree to brighten up my mood and day. The skies are grey outside today and so is my mood with everything going on around us. May we emerge even stronger after all this.. and may this pandemic is behind us sooner than later. Wishing good health and safety for all.
Saree is from Suta, white pumps are Abella. This saree did not come with a blouse so matched it with a bluish-gray blouse (my design).

From the Heart

Like I said last time, yesterday was my daughter’s third birthday and her party was a blast! At least for me it was. Last night when I was lying in bed next to my doll putting her to sleep, somehow I just couldn’t hold back my tears. All the memories – from the day she was born… to when she took her first steps… to when turned one… to when she called me ‘mamma’ for the first time… to when she became a big sister… all these beautiful memories kept flashing in front of my eyes. It was pitch dark in the room but I could see everything crystal clear. All I want is to imprint these special memories in my mind in such a way that they never fade. If only I could just pause the time, this is such a precious time of my life. My older one now communicates her feelings and showers us with hugs and kisses. If only I could bottle up her innocence and sweetness I totally would.
It’s very, very hard for me to put this love, this motherly feeling in words. I am BEYOND grateful to the almighty that I got to experience the gift of motherhood – not once but TWICE! So then, I picked up my phone and started typing everything I was feeling right then. I’ve never attempted at any such thing before, so here it goes –

आज क्या लिखूँ ..??

एक बेटी की आस थी
तब ज़िंदगी में तुम आई
नन्ही सी जान
लगा मानो घर भर गया
दिल को सुकून मिल गया
तुम्हारी बड़ी बड़ी आँखें..
प्यारी सी नाक़
सबने कहा अपने पापा पर गई हो
पायल पहने पुरे घर में दौड़ती थी

नजाने कब तुम इतनी बड़ी हो गई..
अब पटर पटर बोलती हो
कितने सवाल करती हो
मम्मा मम्मा कह पूरा दिन तंग करती हो
कभी अपना बेस्ट फ्रेंड बना लेती हो
और कभी रूठ जाती हो
फिर तुरन्त मान भी जाती हो

अपनी मासूमियत
और चंचल अदाओं से
सबको ख़ूब हसाती हो

तुम्हीं से तो है घर – घर मेरा
तुम्हीं तो मेरी परी हो
अपने पापा की गुड़िया और दादी की लाडो रानी
नानी की तो फुलझड़ी हो

और क्या लिखूँ…
वो शब्द नहीं बने
जो बता सकें
की तुम मेरे लिए क्या हो
बस ईश्वर का आशीर्वाद हो
मेरी प्यारी सी बेटी
मेरी Keva
तुम जियो हज़ारों साल
Happy birthday मेरी लल्ली ❤️

We clicked these pictures after my girl’s birthday party got over. I am surprised how well the saree held its shape and was actually a breeze through out the event. Of course I had to wear a saree! Another gift from dear mothership. Aren’t mothers just awesome! Thanks mom, love you.