If you thought I ran away somewhere, then you are right. I kind of went in to hiding. Actually I haven’t been in the right head space lately. My daughter started day care last week and I am having some very mixed feelings about it. You see she has been at home with me since she was born and now to think that someone else is taking care of her just makes me anxious. On the other hand, I have so much time to myself now since my whole day used to revolve around her. She is fierce, strong and a very active toddler. Sometimes it gets too much. Don’t get me wrong, I love her to pieces. But every mom needs some space too and I am enjoying these quiet hours way more than I imagined. Does that make me a bad mom? Am I being selfish? Is it wrong to feel relieved? Or am I thinking too much? These thoughts just never leave me..
So yes, these conversations that I keep having in my head are the reason why I am not myself lately. And on grey days we wear yellow. Yellow brightens up my mood. I hope you are having a good day!